Sunday, November 15, 2009;6:49 AM Y
If there is a time machine,
I feel like taking it.
And revert into the past.
I know I did something very wrong on 3/11/2009.
But I really didn't mean it.
And you don't trust me anymore.
How am I ever to show you that I really regretted it?
Seriously, sometimes I don't feel like continuing my life anymore.
I lost everything already.
It's really no point.
I've been crying every night since we quarrel.
But friends, if you think that I'm really smiling, you're wrong.
I was just putting on an act.
Trying to make you guys less worried.
Anyway, all I want to talk about, is chances.
Love, is forgiving.
You did loved me.
However, I broke your heart that night.
And that's when you stop loving me.
So now I really need this chance,
To mend the heart for you.
I promise that I will not hurt you the second time again.
But do you believe me?
Did you ever tried to believe in me after we broke?
That's the main problem now, you see.
There might me times that we might accidentally hurt each other.
And we can't run away from it.
Instead, we should let bygones be bygones.
We shouldn't have broke up.
We should have tried to solve the problem.
Now, there is a way out.
If you would allow me, to hold your hands,
We can get out of this misery together.
And we can start afresh too.
Let's stop thinking about the past already can?
Take it as we have never know each other before.
And I've just met you.
And we start from the beginning.
Please, your everything is really important to me.
Shall we?
I've learnt my mistakes already.
I am no longer the old JuNWei.
I am now the new JuÑWëi.
In this case, if you really forgive me and start a new.
Our relationship will be stronger.
Because,
I will cherish you even more.
I will never let go of your hands.
I will love you with every cell within.
I will give you the happiness that we have never felt before.
I will never hurt you once again.
Or worst come worst.
You don't even want to care this relationship anymore.
Which I really think that you should not do.
You also not don't know that I really love you.
Besides, we're fine in the beginning.
Since you said you had loved me,
Why can't you give me a chance to turn over a new leaf?
Why must we end it so fast?
My heart has shattered.
I hate myself for saying those nasty things without thinking.
I feel like killing myself now.